How could you let me slip away?

Photographer: Andrea Draper

He said, He needed time to focus on his next life choice.

I mean, that's what he said.

Who was I to second guess him?

I took him at his word, I respected his space.. his honesty.

I mean, who's really the fool?

He never gave me much to go with.

Is it my fault because I actually trusted you?

or should I have assumed you were full of it.

He was a cutie.

Tall, slim, lean, and sexy.

He had body art, and beautiful skin.

He was fine. I watched his body change from fine, to finer.

I watched him fulfill a task some are called to do.

I watched him do it with an attitude, but truly a survivor.

I was attracted to his zest for life.

I wondered what he was really like.

We had a moment.

You know, one of those moments you never forget.

The moments that causes you to laugh quietly to yourself.

That one that makes your face make that "OO-weee" expression

Our sex was rough.

It didn't make like love.

It reminded me of the wash cycle on the machine.

It didn't feel like it was for me.

Yet... I went back.

I would bury my nose in his spine.

I would press my breasts agains his back.

I would tuck my arm gently under his, and rest my hand on his chest.

I went because I enjoyed the feeling of being desired.

It brought peace to me for that moment.

His breathing was my bedtime story.

It caused me to slip into a deep sleep.

I'm awake.

I want it again.

He says me too, but...

Someone now occupies that space.

I'm thinking.. My Space?

But you said...

I thought...

But..I took you at your word.

I don't like this.

He had to have known where I stood.

I should've been considered.

He says. "It just happened."

Nothing Just happens.

Everything is calculated.

Just like numbers.

There's First, and then there's NOT First.

I was in thought.

Apparently there were other people in my race.

I thought I had a good shot at winning.

I thought I was "clutch"

I ran other races.

But I wanted to win THIS one.

This race, in my mind, is now.. over.

I'm still jogging...

I apologized for my ignorance.

I said... Goodnight.

He said, Goodnight Crystal

I knew it meant Goodbye.